Quit is for Coward. Reboot and Build From Scratch!

CTRL-ALT-DELETE, "Reboot and start from scratch"

Assalamualaikum and good days everyone. Wow it's like waking up after having a long sleep.. Whoaaa.. *big yawn everybaddeehh.. Hmmm "sleeping beauty"? oppps courseee not.. I mean "sleeping beast" okay.. because I'm not that pretty to be classified as beauty. Haha. Handsome? naaahh.. Maybe "Manis"? I think? Haha.. like the saying goes "Hitam-hitam si tampuk manggis, makin hitam makin manis" *vomit. For those do not understand that saying.. please google translate it Malay-English.. Its free okay.. *rolling eyes.. 

Okay done with kicap kipas udang tagline.. Lets get into the topic. Some people might feel familiar with this idiom or proverb "To build from scratch".. But for a legit Malay like me it is such a new thing. From what i've known from my upper form teacher.. it means "to start a new thing or restart something from the beginning".. *Please correct me if  I was wrong about the meaning.

Life is like a wheel, sometimes we up and sometimes we down.. There are a lot of people who are happy to see we down and  only a few of people maybe one, two or less than ten.. who are with us when we are down or having harsh time in our life.. they are most likely to be our family or our true friend. Vice verse, there are many of people around us, who are in grief, unsatisfied or sigh when we succeed and only few of them who are truly happy with running tears when we become successful.. Who are there ? Of course our family. *Sooooo? What's the point brooo? 

Rethink. Our life isn't always bright as sunshine, sometimes its raining, sometimes its dark and sometimes its like a chipsmore or magic tricks, "now you see, then the next time you don't.. Full of mysteries and unexpected events. So what to do is always to be prepared. Everyday, we are facing the unexpected events, because of our limited capabilities on expecting the future, whether it is as the same as our expectation like something we like or don't.

The problem is when the unexpected event is something that we don't want it to be happened, something we hate, something we feel disastrous or something out of our plan. For example, we failed after fighting so hard in doing things we love. Business? Love? Profession? Study? This incident gives a great sadness and deep wound in our heart and in some cases it might cause phobia. In that time, to QUIT is something rational in our head because we have known its risks. For me it's not the best idea.

If we are doing something good or the things we love, to quit after failing is the weakest thought of the day because that is not the way dealing with life. If we quit, we are just running from a problem, a problem keep on haunting us until we solve it. Every time we failed, we got an advantage because we were already exposed to the risk and the fright of failing. In my 2 cents opinion, we just to "build it from scratch" again by analyzing and minimizing the risks, reorganizing plan, do some improvement on our weaknesses and search and fully utilized our strengths. Always act like you never experience the failing incident and try to achieve your goal as best as you can like your first attempt.

Last but not least. If we wanted to be successful, do everything you feel "rationally" good, keep a good relationship with your rigid supporters.. your family and best friends.. and for most Allah.. The mastermind behind every incidents. :) There are always chances as long as we alive. Gambatteee! Start everyday in our life, with new fresh spirits!

This is an open discussion i'm not saying that i'm right, this is just a snippet of my heart and brain. 

Please comments so that i know where is my mistake. :)

Enjoy this song! Okay this is not an adult or 18 SX commercial!

To be more exciting, If you have time do translate the lyrics in your mother's language. 

I like the lyrics and music so much, but not the clip! Though it is akin funny. :P

This song is for my chammak chalo too. Haha

The First Love Is Such Ingenious

It seems like ages for not updating my blog. fuhhh~ Have you fallen in love? Narh.. such a lame or nonsense question to ask. Of course each of us has fallen in love because human can't live without love, except of aliens? Maybe? But I don't think so. Even the superhuman such as Clark Kent has Lois Lane to be loved. So, the fact is human can't run away from love, in case of loving or to be loved by somebody.

Pulanglah sebelum ku run away, Aku menunggu kamu everyday, Aku menunggu kamu monday, tuesday, wednesday , thursday... 

(Suddenly this song stroke my mind.. Haha, what a crap! Actually I'm really waiting for someone to say something crucial related to my life but misfortune is always on my side. So no chance la.. Aduii nye punn..)

Since the topic states the First Love, I'm forced to write about it.. If I disobeyed, I can't even close my eyes tonight because it's my heart's necessity. Huhu. Heart's pleas are such invincible to be denied kann.. heh.. ?? :p  "no one can sleep with a crumpled heart". Sixteen years old, I was too young when I was trapped in love cage. I was immature and still blurred what porn it is? Such a naive and mucousy boy rite? haha.. Hurm.. My views and my actions were just blocked and followed by desires. And so, I was in love with a girl. 

At first, I just wanted to be her friend and never expected that I would loved her. At that time, I was a sexist and banned those couples' things.. ( bapak bajet kan? haha ) But something was going wrong. When I was with her there were some kinds of feelings that made myself relief.. calm.. and secure.. though we just talked through the phone.. Our friendship just not ended in a year.. but almost for four years neither seeing each other nor having a date. Nothing seems weird laa kan.. Normal laa kaan.. haha. But, from inside I can feel a cute love started to build from a size of sunflower seed to small pot of tree grew to produce a lovely and healthy bouquet of flowers. Unfortunately, I never claimed I loved her, just hoping that she would knew from my reactions and everything I did to her. Heyyypp.. don't be so filthy yea.. I wasn't "do anything" to her laa.. XD  --It was about the things I did to show that I loved her-- 

Since a tough and majestic "World Trade Center" collapsed in one strike of attack, same goes to amateurs' love. We were affected by an unsettled conflict then grew into some other conflicts.. form some conflicts into problems.. which induced tension, angry and gap between us. We were too young to understand each other, and were in learning process.. Though her love had conquered a half of my heart, my heart was round to let her go as to choose her own path, to calm down both sides and to focus on my studies. I tried to build it once again but because of detested heart and uncontrolled emotion ( I'm too young to understand love). I had quit!  But my heart kept missing and loving her, without her my life encapsulated by emptiness. 

So, I took a move to stop those feelings and to recover the emptiness I had.. I had tried to love someone else, but... I failed! because the memories between us were too powerful to bare. Moreover, my heart never stop to love her till I'm now 21 years old on the last 16th April. Today I'm not begging for her love but just a chance to express unreveal version of my heart, to hear her voice, to persuade her to unblock me from her facebook and a chance to meet her for once. If all can't be done, I beg her for a recording of "Menghitung Hari Song" piano version played by herself. That's the last wish I have.

"Even now, whenever I heard Menghitung Hari Song I can't even realize that I was crying till the last bit of the song, because I can't bare the memory when she played piano (menghitung hari song) through the phone and it's still fresh in my mind"  

I hope the one who will be her next boyfriend will never let her up in smoke because she is too much special.